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LET THE HEAVENS REJOICE
Let the heavens rejoice and the earth be glad,
Let the seas resound with a mighty roar;
Let the trees of the forest clap their hands,
Let the earth be filled with the glory of the Lord.

All of creation is boldly proclaiming
The wonderful things He has done;
Let's join with all nations in one declaration,
Proclaiming the goodness of God.

The heavens above are declaring His splendor,
His power cannot be denied;
For all of creation is loudly confessing
That Jesus, our Lord, is alive.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005
5:56 AM

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i love JESUS (:

Sunday, September 18, 2005
1:58 AM

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i love JESUS (:

Saturday, September 17, 2005
11:34 PM

cell group yesterday. (: not really, but yeahs. we had our lunch at tampines small macs then proceeded to sabby's house by 292. we were looking at yearbooks and pictures of sabby when she was much younger - in her kc days. it was super funny that everyone laughed till their jaws dropped. especially her claimed 'IN HAIRSTYLE' during her secondary three days. it looked, haha. FUNNY. :D pastor daniel have got a similiar hairstyle as sabby when he was much younger! HAHA, they looked like father and daughter. it was four already. then we went downstairs and while waiting for dawn, tx, chai and charm, we played pictionary with this whiteboard that dwayne has. it was hilarious la, was laughing like mad when we gave sabby the question. it was 'the ends of the world'. they took 1 minute, 38 seconds to picture the whole thing out. :D

then we watched the passion of christ. i thought it was like, a little disgusting because of what sabby had told the whole cell. she said lavonne went to the toilet to vomit twice so i thought it was really disgusting lah. but in the end, it was a little shocking till i jumped quite a few times. it was so heartbreakening to watch that movie. i was weeping and weeping throughouht the whole movie. especially when Jesus was whipped by the roman soldiers and the part where he was crucified. my eyes were really swollen and im in need of tissues.

questions asking myself were popping into my head. those questions were strucking me when i watched the movie. i really woke up from that unrealistic dream i have in mind. we watched the movie and was doing some relfections and sharings for ourselves.

nobody moved a single bit, except that their heads were bowed down. some, were even tearing and weeping.

i, took the initiative, stood up and walked away from that uncomfortable scene. i was praying in front of this wall, repenting - naming all of my sins. i asked God for forgiveness and also, to teach to me to be dependant on him and not others, for man fails us, but he do not. My burdens seemed to be leaving me at that moment, and i just felt such joy that i started smiling all the way. i just felt, that God is speaking to me throughout the whole movie, directing questions to me.

"Jesus has suffered so much and accepted his persecutions, what about me? He never complained, yet continued to accept, and always place trust in God. If Jesus take these things lightly and puts God first, why can't I? Whenever I have problems, I never tried to seek God, in fact, I seeked my leaders and friends. Why is it that, they could only give me advices, and not ease in my mind? Why is it that, ONLY GOD can give me that peace and joy in my heart, and not man? Whenever I have problems, I always complain and refuse to face the problem I have. Jesus - He did so much. He suffered so much, and never complained. He never blamed the devil, yet gave thanks and asks his father for forgiveness in the world. My problems, persecutions upon me, are SO MINOR - compared to Jesus'."

Sabby was right. God is always speaking to us, is just that we dont open our spiritual ears to listen.

My heart was in real pain, when I saw nails being nailed into Jesus' hands. I then looked at my hands that God has gave me, there were no holes in them all along. I wasn't crucified on the cross, but Jesus was. He did it, for our sins. I was weeping non-stop when i saw the nails being nailed into his hands. I just feel the pain, each time the roman soldiers hammered the nail, I feel the pain, in my heart.

HE DID IT, FOR ME AND FOR US.

i love JESUS (:

Friday, September 16, 2005
7:55 AM

tired out from those running and screamings in school. :D its pretty fun today, was screaming and shouting and singing so loudly at our block. haha, this NCC girl who was at the hall staircase was waving her hands towards our singing. eunyse, ju, crys and me were singing in front of this pillar imagining ourselves at k-box with the screen and singing like crazy. teehee, this could be one way to save money.

we sang and sang throughout the day, always the same songs. WUDING was one of our top favourite. we kept seeing that song till we really drop. our class were above the office and we stood at the corridor and sang as a group loudly. (: teachers were looking up but they didnt care, so we continued singing.

crys spotted sk and was telling me about the jj thing we found at k-box. it was free, and its pretty exclusive, so we took many copies. one for myself, ahsand, crys and sk. the whole stack was almost gone. teehee- (: eunyse, ju, crys, sotong, mandy, sand and me went k-boxing. we sang till we went crazy, then theres this k-box guy kept talking to us rubbish and crap. then he was like, acting stupid. we asked him to help us take photos then he took the phone and almost ran away. how funny, my jaws are droppping. :D

then we went back to kc in bus 36, happened to see zhang laoshi inside the bus. was actually quite restless when mr meyer screamed my name and asked me to take attendance and open class door. EH, im barely a secretary must ask me do everything? no such thing called VICE CHAIR is it? the teachers only ask vice-chair questions when sotong aint around. work, always either sotong or me. ugh-

im getting tired and exhausted of this, everytime ME, ME and ME. i dare to say teachers and whoeveritis treats me for granted. whenever they need a proposal done, ARIANE. whenever they need the attendance file, ARIANE. whenever that teacher wants someone to look after class's attendance after every period, ARIANE. change class key, open class door, ARIANE. then what's the use of chairperson and vicechairperson?

im stressed up by all these stuffs can. i already have my academic problems - maths and english, personal problems and lots of problems i do not wish to disclose. and now, the school is giving me SCHOOL problems. i mean, whats wrong? cant they share my work load with the others? not just ME? you think im a typical OFFICE secretary who does EVERYTHING when people pass me work to do? people's work, boss' work, its me and me and ME? i had ENOUGH. im going to wash my hands off this.

lantern festival was up till about 9pm at night, we had this retarded treasure hunt (: miss lam's speech was short, and thats nice. sabby turned up for it today, and was thanked by ms lam during her speech. those cell people were screaming for her, up at the gallery. :D she contributed 10 mooncakes. -clap-

1/5 won the First Place - Sotong and Group, Second Place - Crys, me, ju, kendra and eunyse, Third Place - Shazlin and group

YOU GO GIRLS :D
am proud of you people-

i love JESUS (:

Monday, September 12, 2005
2:13 AM

im getting tired. hatred is boiling within me now.

you know how much you girls are to me? every thing that you said that unsatisfies your life and kept telling me that you want to end your life, looking at you girls using pen knives and metal ruler to cut your wrist, it really - hurt me a lot. everything, every action - is pieces of shattered glasses stabbed into my heart.

you know how much it hurts. you know how much it pains me. i really hate LUCIFER (THE DEVIL). why must he come and destroy our lifes? why cant he just let us have a peaceful life with God? each time when you tell me that no one cares about you, no one loves you - have you placed a place in your heart for God? do you know how GOD FEELS when you said that?

God. he is suffering when he sees all these doings by Lucifer above. he is in pain, have you thought about him? Cutting your wrists, torturing yourself by not eating, say how much people hate you and how much people dont care about you. saying how much you want to die, how much you want to COMMIT SUICIDE.

i feel so. bad. she told me - dont bother about me. i'll cry alone, be like everyone else. it really pains my heart. WHERE IS EVERYONE when she need care and love? do they only ask 'hey, are you okay?' and when she nods her head just to make you happy and worry less, you just LEAVE like that? leaving her alone, in misery, allowing Lucifer to clutch her in his hands?

FRIENDS. think, how much have you suffered for a friend? would you cry, REALLY CRY, when your friend is crying because of something that happened terribly on her, would you COMFORT her not only asking her 'are you okay' and leave? would you REALLY be by her side when she needs love and care? WHEN SHE FEELS LONELY AND MISERABLE?

why does people think of suicide now. WHY. just because of little things that doesnt satisfy their needs? just because they dont feel LOVE? just because they dont feel that people CARE? YOU who is reading my blog. REFLECT, how would you know if someone dont care for you? JUST BECAUSE - when you're in trouble, you assume that they never helped you? WHO SAYS. what if, they are actually doing something behind the scenes? WHO KNOWS. YOU KNOW? NEVER. THEY KNOW.

people out there. stop doing silly things. my heart is going to sink, soon.

i love JESUS (:

Sunday, September 11, 2005
6:09 AM

havent been posting lazy due to my laziness. oh CRAP, i just did this new skin for myself and even had a picture of myself when i was in kindergarten! (: i shall like, recall what happened during these days. will just pen whatever i can remember here yes? here it goes-

THURSDAY - have been a long time since i went for cell lunches. received a message the previous day from daphne and was actually complaining. i dont know why, i feel so restless. i went for cell lunch dragging my feet there - delicia and the rest were doing their homework so i joined too. in the end we crapped and forgotten all about homework and left it aside. and this is the day i almost got knocked down by this car, and was so frightened.

was making my way to parkway when i alighted at the marine parade bus stop and used the post office way. there's this gap in between the roads cos it was meant for cars to like, park in there. then i walked and saw someone who looked like jesslyn and there came this car who horned so loudly at me. man, i got a shock of my life. then i quickly ran to the other side and walked so slowly to KFC. i was actually in deep thoughts. i was like - what if i die at that moment. what will happen to my friends and family? will i go to heaven and things like that. dont ask why, cos if you were the one, you will think about that too.

thursday was okay, we ate, did a little of our homework and decided to visit the arcade. they played the three plug play thing and cheryl and dawn won. then we went to Life Bookshop. i spotted this cheap KJV Bible and decided to come and buy it the next day. (: then i saw so many books, they seemed to be displayed for me. the category was 'Spiritual Growth'. hmm, then we went to Giant. meida, tx and the rest were saying this manicure cheer. okay, then later we shopped around and walked downstairs to eat old changkee. then we went to buy bubble tea and by then its already 6 something, so some of us went home while nx and quite a few went to tx's house. the telok kurau park - ahh! i used to go to that park often :D

FRIDAY - nothing much. i cant remember. i stayed home, used the computer and chatted away. slacked also. (: teehee.

SATURDAY - zone service in church. we used this new renovated room - cool seh. (: it used to be a PUB! turn-me-on pub or something. yeahs, pastory yang talked to the owner and things changed. hmm, yes. cornerstone is growing, hallelujah! :D we cleaned up that room as a zone and had our service there. we played egg,chick,chicken,eagle and angel game - its lame but fun (: teri, meida and johnny lost, and only teri and johnny did the forfeit. delia showed the chicken dance while we sang the tune, and sabby led the dance! (she won the whole game and was the first to become angel) i was supposed to be a chick too. teehee. oh well. then we had praise and worship. the songs were, beautiful.

i dont know what's his name, but i call him the china man. (pronounce: cheena) :D he said it himself. he was funny, haha. but the word that he shared was so meaningful, and i just felt its like, so so so much for me. and during self-reflection, the words he said struck me. it really strucked me just like, i dont know. electricity flow into my head? i was tearing, and told myself 'no, i cannot. i cannot cry.' when people gathered into small groups and prayed for one another, i stood there alone and started thinking and thinking. the moment i know that im about to fall onto my knees, lavonne grabbed hold of my hands and prayed along with me. i looked down all while, controlling myself.

i failed in the end. i just, feel so guilty. im back to my old lifestyle, and i am that deflating boat that he was talking about. what more am i, to God? lavonne. she cried when praying. i just feel it. she told me that she just felt God saying how much he loves me and upon hearing that, i cried. flashbacks of what i did that hurt God came into my mind, many of them. i feel so hurt, i actually felt how God felt - pain. i no longer can take it anymore. i fell on the ground. we were both hugging each other when i cried when i felt the pain in me. it was so painful, its like - God is telling me 'This is the pain that I have felt. Can you feel it?' even till now, i can never forget that feeling.

i will never forget that feeling God has given me. it was so powerful. and upon typing this, to look back, this isnt the time i cry or sob. it is the time to fight the battle for Christ! i must, and have to pump air within me and be that lifeboat and carry lost souls back to God! leaders, pastors, trust me - i will.

OH. (: after that, we went jamming. then we went to eat at kopitiam. :D was real funny, haha. stupid things happen. she kicked my leg and never realised. how great. (: haha, im not that petty. they were making fun of my encounters. teri started laughing like crazy and then the rest followed. a good leader has followers? oh rubbish-

im all filled up. (: with the fire. was on the computer and talked to her. she seemed offended. she said she was. i didnt mean it, im serious. i just wanted to share the gospel to you. i dont mean anything. im, serious. (: went offline at about 12 plus and went to have some quiet time with myself and God. i prayed, for my friends and family. and God seemed to be speaking to me. I was crying while praying in the spirit. I felt such annointing in me, i felt for my friends and family. my question to God, 'when, will they turn to you? when, will they allow me to bring them to you?' I asked God and i got the answer. 'Patience.'

SUNDAY - i watched mean girls. the girls are real mean. :D haa, its funny. went out together with my parents to parkway and had a great time there. we ate japanese food and icecream, shopped around for shoes and slippers and then we went to marine parade to shop again. my mum and dad bought some oldies cds while my sister and i bought bubble tea for ourselves. we ate alot huh? (: yes, then i came back exhausted but came online. was talking to Jesslyn on MSN and i am really confirmed that answer God has given me. Jess also send me some great songs. fell in love with HOLY - a song sang by City Harvest Church. :D and heart of worship. both great and lovely songs! (:

Jesslyn's nickname was 'patience with others is LOVE, patience with self is HOPE, patience with God is FAITH' God is telling me that through Jesslyn. (: yes, and i have understood what he wants to tell me. Praise God. (:

i love JESUS (:

Sunday, September 04, 2005
5:05 AM

nothing much today. (: went out with my parents to parkway when it was raining super heavily.

tomorrow have maths remedial and got birthday bash! (: <33 birthday bashes especially when there's JY and WJ in it! WOO! ((: okay, i stop here. looking forward to tomorrow.

P.S I bought the I-weekly newspaper and CUT MY HAIIRRRRRRRR. (: YAYY!

i love JESUS (:

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